I don’t know if this is the case with every Christian or not, but it seems like the more I read my Bible and follow God, the more the devil tries to attack me. It’s when I’m failing that, ironically, he lets up on his attacks.
I’m going to be thirty next year, and I just feel like it’s ridiculous that the devil won’t let up on his attacks as I get older. Honestly, it gets tiring at times. I know why some people end up backsliding, and that includes me in the past as well. It’s literally exhausting dealing with the attacks of the enemy.
The way the enemy attacks me is through lies. I’ve always felt like I wasn’t good enough in life, mainly due to our society’s perception of what beauty is, and also because of rude comments people have made about me. My mom has always told me I’m beautiful and intelligent. The hateful comments and self-doubting have mostly come from the world.
When I’m feeling like the enemy is attacking me, I like listening to the song “Lies” by Keith Green. You can find it on YouTube. I highly recommend listening to it.
I’ve finally come to a point in my life where I actually feel good about myself. But, I’m seeking God, and the enemy can’t have that. So, here comes the self doubt and feeling like I’m not good enough again.
In fact, the enemy has been trying to attack me through my blog too. I have been feeling like I have no business writing a Christian blog because, well, in some ways I am still very much a “new” Christian myself. Although I was born again/accepted Jesus in my heart a long time ago, I feel like I am just finally starting to truly follow Him. Then I remember that God gave me a talent for writing, and I believe He gives us each unique talents so that we can glorify Him through them.
If you have been having self doubts despite the fact that you’ve been seeking God, it may very well be BECAUSE you are seeking God. Don’t stop seeking God! You need to brush off the lies of the enemy. What I do is recite Bible verses to myself that I know are in direct contrast to what the enemy wants me to think. For instance, Psalm 139:14 (WEB) says that we are “fearfully and wonderfully made.” Jeremiah 1:5 tells us that God knew us even before we were in the womb: “Before I formed you in the belly, I knew you. Before you came forth out of the womb, I sanctified you.”
It’s difficult to ignore the lies of the devil. I know, because it’s something I struggle with on an almost daily basis lately. Just today, though, someone in Walmart complimented me on my dress (my Dollar General maxi dress to be exact). It’s almost like God was telling me, through this kind person, that I AM good enough.
The devil is a liar, point blank. Don’t listen to him. Read God’s truths instead, believe them, and live them. You really were “fearfully and wonderfully made,” and God really does love you. The only opinion that matters isn’t an opinion at all- it’s God’s truth that He himself created you, and you are more than good enough for the God of the universe!