Your Identity

Depending on your age, you may have any number of roles: you may be a daughter, a wife, a mother, a grandmother, a student, an employee, a manager, etc. These are all identities that we have in life.

When there is a problem in any of your life roles, you may feel like you are not good enough. For instance, if you are going to college and your grades slip, you might feel like a failure as a student. If you’ve ever lost a job, you probably felt like a failure in the work world.

Lately, I have been feeling like a failure for a number of reasons. For one, I lost my job a few months ago. Another reason I felt like a failure is because I was mean to my mom awhile ago, something which I have since been forgiven for from both her and God. I’ve even felt like a failure as a Christian, because almost every time I tell myself I’m going to sit down and read some of the Bible, I usually don’t read it.

Just when I was fed up with feeling the weight of failure in my life, I asked God to speak to me. To my surprise, He answered me shortly after my plea to hear His voice. God very clearly spoke these words to my heart: You are a child of God, and that’s the only identity that truly matters. God is so good, and though we don’t always hear His voice, He knew that I needed to hear Him in that moment. It was exactly what I needed to hear!

You are a child of God, and that’s the only identity that truly matters.

I searched the Bible for a verse that corroborates with the words God gave me, and this is what I found:

“For ye are all the children of God by faith in Christ Jesus. For as many of you as have been baptized into Christ have put on Christ.” -Galatians 3:26-27 (KJV).

“The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are children of God” -Romans 8:16 (WEB)

“I will be to you a Father. You will be to me sons and daughters” -2 Corinthians 6:18 (WEB)

It does not matter if you “fail” in any of your roles in life. You are, and always will be, a child of God. Nothing will ever take that role from you! So, even if you lose your job or you get a failing grade or whatever the case may be, you will never lose your identity in Christ. Isn’t that the most important identity that we have?

“For ye are all the children of God by faith in Christ Jesus.” -Galatians 3:26 (KJV)

God also promises us that “We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose.” -Romans 8:28 (WEB) Regardless of your life role ‘failures’, you can rest knowing that God has everything under control. You simply have to trust Him.

Don’t Believe The Lies

I don’t know if this is the case with every Christian or not, but it seems like the more I read my Bible and follow God, the more the devil tries to attack me. It’s when I’m failing that, ironically, he lets up on his attacks.

I’m going to be thirty next year, and I just feel like it’s ridiculous that the devil won’t let up on his attacks as I get older. Honestly, it gets tiring at times. I know why some people end up backsliding, and that includes me in the past as well. It’s literally exhausting dealing with the attacks of the enemy.

The way the enemy attacks me is through lies. I’ve always felt like I wasn’t good enough in life, mainly due to our society’s perception of what beauty is, and also because of rude comments people have made about me. My mom has always told me I’m beautiful and intelligent. The hateful comments and self-doubting have mostly come from the world.

When I’m feeling like the enemy is attacking me, I like listening to the song “Lies” by Keith Green. You can find it on YouTube. I highly  recommend listening to it.

I’ve finally come to a point in my life where I actually feel good about myself. But, I’m seeking God, and the enemy can’t have that. So, here comes the self doubt and feeling like I’m not good enough again.

In fact, the enemy has been trying to attack me through my blog too. I have been feeling like I have no business writing a Christian blog because, well, in some ways I am still very much a “new” Christian myself. Although I was born again/accepted Jesus in my heart a long time ago, I feel like I am just finally starting to truly follow Him. Then I remember that God gave me a talent for writing, and I believe He gives us each unique talents so that we can glorify Him through them.

If you have been having self doubts despite the fact that you’ve been seeking God, it may very well be BECAUSE you are seeking God. Don’t stop seeking God! You need to brush off the lies of the enemy. What I do is recite Bible verses to myself that I know are in direct contrast to what the enemy wants me to think. For instance, Psalm 139:14 (WEB) says that we are “fearfully and wonderfully made.” Jeremiah 1:5 tells us that God knew us even before we were in the womb: “Before I formed you in the belly, I knew you. Before you came forth out of the womb, I sanctified you.”

It’s difficult to ignore the lies of the devil. I know, because it’s something I struggle with on an almost daily basis lately. Just today, though, someone in Walmart complimented me on my dress (my Dollar General maxi dress to be exact). It’s almost like God was telling me, through this kind person, that I AM good enough.

The devil is a liar, point blank. Don’t listen to him. Read God’s truths instead, believe them, and live them. You really were “fearfully and wonderfully made,” and God really does love you. The only opinion that matters isn’t an opinion at all- it’s God’s truth that He himself created you, and you are more than good enough for the God of the universe!

True Repentance

If we want to be forgiven for our sins, we must truly repent and be sorrowful. Once we do these two things, God will erase our guilt and shame. He doesn’t stop there. He also promises to lift us up (James 4:7-10).

Don’t keep carrying the weight of guilt and shame on your shoulders. I personally went through a period of repenting and feeling sorrowful for my sins, and God did lift me up. I now feel His grace and peace.

Don’t question if you are worthy of being forgiven, either. Peter denied Jesus not once, not twice, but a total of three times (Luke 22:54-62). Still, Jesus still took him back (John 21:15-25). Jesus loves you and He longs for you to return to Him.

Do Not Be Afraid

All you have to do to get your daily dose of fear is turn on the local news or scroll through your Facebook feed. It always seems like there are more bad news stories than good ones, and the more you pay attention to the news, the more you start to notice this. It is too easy to become entangled in fear in this day and age.

Lately, the media has been focusing on threats of war from other countries. The Bible tells us not to be afraid when we hear about wars (Matthew 24:6). In fact, this verse tells us to expect that wars will happen.

Threats of war is just one such example of fear we get from the media on a daily basis. Another example happened just today in Charlottesville, Virginia. Without going into too much detail, there was protest/rally surrounding the Robert E. Lee statue, and members of two opposing groups were at the event. Unfortunately, the event turned violent. Many people were injured, and one person lost their life when a car plowed into the crowd. Hearing stories like this can make us afraid that something similar will happen in our own town.

We should not bow to fear. The Bible tells us to not be afraid. Psalm 37, for example, tells us not to be afraid when people do evil things. Instead, as Psalm 37 tells us, we are to put our trust in God. Psalm 37 also tells us to “do good,” and that those who do these things will be exalted. It also says that we can take “refuge” in the Lord when we are faced with troubling times.

You see, the world can be perceived as a scary place, with all the violence and global tensions the news reports. We don’t have to be afraid, though. We serve a God who is always with us, who lives in us, and who comforts us.

Even if a war does happen, or a violent protest erupts in a city near us, we know that God will be our stronghold who we can take refuge in. It’s not worth it to live your life in fear. The Bible tells us wars will happen. I think what matters is our response to the world’s fear. We can respond by not being afraid and by continuing to do God’s work by proclaiming the truth and winning souls for the Gospel.

Growing Around Failure

Notice anything different about this tree?
Notice anything different about this tree?

Have you ever experienced the discouraging feeling of seeing “seasoned” Christians failing in their faith? It can be hard realizing that every Christian, even Christians who we look up to as role models, are not perfect. They can stumble just like everyone else. Growing is tough enough, and it becomes even tougher when our role models fail to live up to our expectations.

A "new tree" is growing out of this old, rotting tree!
A “new tree” is growing out of this old, rotting tree!

God used a tree in my backyard to show me that, despite what we see other people doing, we can continue our own personal growth. There is this tall tree in my backyard that has spots of green mold on it, and most of its branches are leaning down. However, on this old and decaying tree, new life is springing forth. One of the leaning branches has a branch growing on it that looks like a miniature tree. This branch is not leaning like the rest of the branches on the tree. On the contrary, it is growing straight up towards the sun like a new tree would.  In fact, it may be an actual tree growing- if you are a tree expert, I would love to hear an explanation for this!

Anyway, this tree is living proof that we can continue to grow despite what is going on around us. Even when people fail us, we can choose to seek God for ourselves and stay on the straight and narrow path.

Similarly, we can grow even after we ourselves fail in our faith. Psalm 37:23-24 (NIV) tells us, The Lord makes firm the steps of the one who delights in him; though he may stumble, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with his hand.”

Do you have anything in your past you are ashamed of? Like the tree, the guilt of your past may make you feel like you are slumping. However, God promises us that we are new creations (2 Corinthians 5:17)! Like the tree, we can “press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called [us] heavenward in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 3:14 NIV)